School has started for a week now and I'm starting to get the hang of it again.

There's a dubble feeling going through me actually. On the one side, I'm feeling quite adult now. I'm taking more and more responsabilities in school, in school projects, in the choir and so on and so on. It frightens me in some way, but I do like the way I can do so many things and the way people rely on me. It makes me feel great .
On the other side I feel like I'm going through some big puberal stage.
It's like I'm having the first real struggle with myself and only because of myself. Oh well, it'll pass by with time.
Another thing about that struggle is that I can't really get myself motivated anymore. It sucks because I have so many things going on in which it's necessary to be motivated and enthusiastic. I'm going to force myself into motivation.

Oh well, nothing much going on artistic road. I hate the fact that it's dark so soon. It means that when I want to go out to shoot a bit it's dark and the whole light-thing I haven't got to know yet and I don't have the equiment for it. I'm waiting until summer...